Lately

Lately. It's been a struggle.

2022 started on a bad note. I felt trapped and frustrated, I felt like giving up on my goals. Then I caught COVID and I just felt tired of everything. I felt even more frustrated. I felt impatient. I felt tired and lonely and sad and depressed. A few weeks later, I started feeling extremely stressed, tired, anxious and angry. My body felt imbalanced. So I thought: Maybe COVID fucked up everything so I'm having some Graves' disease symptoms? So maybe that's the case. But then I realized my body was also in need of magnesium as I saw my right thumb moving on its own (pretty weird and annoying if you ask me lol) So I started taking magnesium pills since Saturday.

What I learned this past year is to listen to my mind and body. I used to ignore those signs/emotions/symptoms back then. I didn’t listen. I didn’t care. But things are different today. Even though it can be hard to face those issues, it is also important to take care of ourselves before things get worse.

As I am typing this, I feel less angry, less stressed, less anxious and less negative. I'm starting to feel more positive. I am feeling more hopeful.

But what a struggle it is to be alive lol

I am not here to complain. I know some people go through way worse. I'm just here to tell you how I am feeling. Life is not always sunshine and rainbows. Life is fucking hard. And I want people to know that it is okay to feel whatever they're feeling and no one has to apologize for feeling.

Despite all of that, I kept doing all those breathing exercices and yoga. I kept doing the things that make me feel better, those things that help me heal ever since I got diagnosed with Graves' disease. I honestly don't know where I will be without these tools. Life changing.

I hate feeling like this. I am tired of feeling weak and sick. I want to feel better, and I promise I am doing whatever I can to get better. I am getting there.

- Virginie