An Open Letter To A Past Demon. Dearest Devil, by Victoria Groff
Photo credit: Brandynn Leigh
I hope you know that while you may have scarred me and scrambled my heart and mind for a very long time, you never won the fight. I will always be the winner of that battle, because I survived it.
I used to write all my songs about you; it was the way I grieved and processed all of the hurt. The betrayal, gaslighting, manipulation, unkind words, judgment; everything. It was through songwriting that I realized my pen was and always will be mightier than your sword. I don’t write all my songs about you anymore because surprisingly, when you leave a toxic human in your past and lock the door, throw away the key, you eventually heal and learn that life is more than the words someone said to you, and the shame they made you feel.
‘Moves Like The Devil’ is all about the day I woke up and realized I had been living in a world on fire, and you were holding the matches. Don’t ask me why it was that day. Something just clicked, finally, and I realized that what I thought was love, was emotional abuse wrapped up in disguise.
Taking o those rose-coloured glasses and realizing my full worth was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. I will no longer be hypnotized by fake love, by manipulation, by toxic humans, because I’ve learned that I deserve a lot more in this life than the shitty scraps of love you’d occasionally throw my way. I’ll never name you, at least not for now, because your name doesn’t deserve to be spoken. For now, you can be known as the worst person I’ve ever met in my entire life. Rolls o the tongue pretty well, eh?
Today on July 8th 2022, ‘Moves Like The Devil’ comes out to the public. I have a show tonight in Vancouver, and you best believe I will be singing it loudly and proudly, unafraid and fearless because I control my life and my love and my thoughts now. I will wear whatever I want, hang with whoever I want, and be whoever I want to be because I am no longer trapped in the fiery hell of you. So long devil, may we never meet again.
Sincerely, Victoria Groff
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