Micro-physiotherapy

Hi :)

On Friday, I got a session with a wonderful micro-physiotherapist. For those who are not familiar with this practice, micro-physiotherapy started in France in 1980 by two physiotherapists and osteopaths Patrice Benini and Daniel Grosjean. I wasn’t really familiar with this practice until my friends told me about it. Micro-physiotherapy is a manual technique which consists in finding in the patient’s body the causes of the symptoms. It’s basically going back to the roots of the problem and eventually cure it through several sessions and exercises. The practitioner asks questions about our medical history and why you’re here. For me, it was for Graves’ disease and for another health issue I’ve been having since 2018: intercostal neuralgia. It causes a neuropathic pain in the intercostal nerves. The first time I experienced this, I thought I was having heart issues because I could barely breathe and my chest hurt a lot. Back then, the doctor asked me if I was stressed and I said no because I had no idea I was. But then I realized stress was a big deal in my life. I went to see an osteopath and he fixed my issue. But it kept coming back. I tried working on it with breathing exercices and I thought I had it under control, but I was wrong. I kept seeing my osteopath and it felt good for a bit, but it kept coming back on a daily basis - which is quite annoying. I feel oppressed a lot of the times and my chest often hurt. So I went to see a micro-physiotherapist and it was one of the best experiences ever. I laid down while she checked on my body the causes of my symptoms. While doing that, she unlocked emotions/traumas by pointing at some specific events, either by giving a specific time in my life or by asking me questions about certain things in my life. She asked if anything happened at 6 years old, at 16, at 20 years, in April and if my relationship with my siblings were good. I couldn’t always remember what happened especially at 6 years old but she often talked about how I felt denigrated and how I was afraid of failure. She also felt a lot of anger and emotional pain. These emotions completely resonate with me. This is how I’ve been feeling most of my life. Family trauma. That’s what it is. If you were wondering, my relationship with my siblings is quite complicated. Well, with one sister in particular (I have 3 older sisters). She has been back home with my parents since April and it’s been a nightmare. She’s mean, ungrateful and shows absolutely no respect. My relationship with her has always been chaotic but it’s been harder these days. And it really affected my mental health and my body.

After the session, she told me to take magnesium pills for a month (it will help with my thyroid treatment and with stress - I started yesterday) and gave me a couple of exercises to do at home - which I am planning on doing every day. In the morning and in the evening. Today is my third day. These exercices will help me reduce stress and anxiety, and will help me heal. I think my favorite exercise is the cardiac coherence exercise. It’s a breathing exercise where you inhale and exhale for 5 minutes, 3 times a day. She said this exercise will help me a lot if I stick to it. As you know, I am very motivated so I’m very happy about these exercises. Plus, I am still doing yoga every day :)

Here’s the video I’ve been using if you’re interested :)

I’ve been doing my best to take care of myself. This session was really helpful and I can’t wait to go back (I’m going back at the end of the year). After the session I felt GOOD, but I also felt sad thinking about the shit I’ve been through. I realized how much I felt unloved/denigrated by family members and I realized how much it impacted my life and my personal life decisions. I guess it’s why I’m moving so slowly in life and why I’m always afraid of failure. I’m afraid of criticism and judgement and hate. And all this shit brought so much stress and anxiety. So it’s been a physical and emotional struggle. And that made me fucking sad realizing all that. But that’s okay. I’m still healing and learning, and it’s been really hard. But I am doing whatever I can to get better. I know I’m on the right path, and I will get better.

I. will. get. better.

Thank you for reading me :)

Much love,

V.